My first day of grade 1, I came home crying because I hadn’t learned how to read yet.  I was told grade 1 would be the year I could learn how to read a book by myself.  Just imagine my surprise when I wasn’t an expert the first day.  You know how I like to know stuff.

With September, comes fresh starts and new things to learn.  You get used to setting new goals and discovering new inspirations that happen when starting school, which I still find to have such a big presence, even though I haven’t been in school for years.

For my birthday, my older sister gave me this beautiful planner – pictured above.  I have always loved organizing, but it has also given me anxiety more recently since organizing means you have to face all of your ‘to-do’s’, even the ones you don’t like.  When I was a kid, I was pretty bossy (being the middle girl of 3) and organizing feels like you have control.  You can’t be partially organized.  For example, I can’t claim to have it all together and not want to look at the total on the bills to be paid.  (**This comes from having a self-employed hubby – you can wait ages to be paid sometimes, or when money does come in, it goes right out again to pay sub-contractors.  Budgeting? What’s that?  Anyone who is business for self I know can relate).

I am making it a goal to be more organized, and not procrastinate.  For me, this means sorting through things and getting rid of the things we no longer need or use, getting our business expense binder all put together and being more proactive with it – not letting it pile up, and backing up pictures or data onto a drive (this one takes so long, I always put it off!).

I can use my new planner, write out some goals and ‘to-do’s’ that I can see and enforce for the month.  Also, at a glance, I can see the hockey schedule so I know where I can fit in time to work in the writing and painting.  I have two boys both in hockey and the older one can learn how to referee this year.  The first two weeks while they form teams it means being at the rink twice a day for 5 out of 7 days.

This gift of the planner came at a time I was already determining I had to face things that give me anxiety and just deal with it.  Get my act together 😊.  I am getting a bit of anxiety, writing about some of the anxiety I have, which is funny and must mean I am making progress by mentioning it out loud.  Organizing will ultimately make me feel better, so that is reason enough for me.  Mastery of self.  Always a good goal.

September, the best is yet to come.



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