Creative Director: Invisible

I Create: Creative Director of My Life.

Just like Harry Potter has an invisibility cloak, there was one time I may as well have had one on.

I was at the cafe, standing in a line to get tea. And this person walked in, walked around me, where I was in an obvious line up waiting spot and went right up to the counter to order, when there wasn’t even a person there ready to serve. And did I say anything? No. My voice has always been quiet, it would be worse if I started to speak and not been heard. This person was clearly on their own planet. I took more of an amused, observant approach at how unaware some people are. He clearly needed his coffee.

Although I just chose to be amused, it did bother me in the sense of, ‘am I just that invisible to some people?’ Someone could take it further to think, do I just not matter? And by not speaking up, does that mean I’m ‘allowing’ this to happen? And yes, while these are valid thoughts and concerns, I knew that for this situation, I would never see this person again, so there is little other evidence that I ‘don’t matter.’ Being worried about being invisible to someone that I have no connection to, is overall of little concern.

I have, over the course of my life, been ok with being invisible to some degree. I don’t need people to look at me, I don’t need attention. But what I’ve come to realize is that what it also means is that i’m holding back. Holding back being who i truly am and ‘shining my light,’ so to speak. Not that I want to stand up on a stage and have the attention of millions of people (no thanks), but I do want to be seen in the way that I can confidently just be me. And, because this topic has been on my mind while I’ve been composing this, another source (via Instagram) validly pointed out that by someone shining their light of confidently being their unique expression, it ‘gives permission,’ for others to do the same. Someone being confident and unapologetically themself (his self/ herself, you get it), makes other people realize they can also be so bold.

The goal is to not hold back who I want to be and who I’m becoming. Particularly for the purpose of creating a life I love. What better way to create our best life than to have the courage to be the person we are meant to be? I’ve always seen the negative side of attention. People staring, or challenging you, or trying to point out if or when you are wrong, or laughing at you when you mess something up.

Fear, or the expectation of fear can really hold us back. Better to focus on the good. Like the good energy you will be sending out into the world. I don’t want attention for attention’s sake, but I can go forward no longer being invisible.

Until next week,

Devon